I haven't cried like I just did in a very long time, and I must admit that it's only been building. You see, I'm not overly religious, but I do miss my church and congregation from back home. There's just something about the way the church lobby smells like wood and new construction... There's something about the way that the ancient pews creak when everyone sings. I miss it. I never thought I'd be the one to say this, but I actually miss having a relationship with God. I must need to go to church. Thanks, God, for sending me that sign.
I do have a fantastic group of friends, though, and they are incredibly supportive. Last week, I broke up with a boyfriend, of sorts, and my friends have been there for me every step of the way. There's also something that I must blog about because it's something that struck me as particularly moving. I was talking to Token the other day and he said "Hey, Weebs, we should hang out more often." and then his girlfriend and her cousin chimed in with "Yeah! You should." And surprisingly, they make me incredibly happy. I've never found unlikely friends to be so entertaining and open. They are wonderful people and they make me thankful everyday that I said yes to taking chances I normally would have passed on. Sure, they might be a little (one might say) impulsive, but I like to say it's spontaneous fun. I am constantly laughing and being my own geeky self. I love it. Since I took the chance, I have found myself being invited and hanging out with them everyday. So, in perspective, I looked back on the whole ordeal and everything that has happened to me since starting college.
If I hadn't been in Southside at the very moment that I walked in, I would have never met my best friend, Pedro. We would have never talked about how we hate sweating, and she would have never even gotten the chance to know me... or would she? Who knows? And Token; if Don had made him play tenor, I would have never gotten the chance to hate his guts for a few days until he warmed up and actually started talking. We would have never walked home together and started talking about WoW. He would never have become my best friend. And Voldy. If she had never invited Pedro and I to come with to Cougar Country for her birthday, we would have never become bro-sisses when she switched to tuba. Voldy would have never come to dinner with the bros that night and I would have never suggested that she become one of us. In fact, Pedro and Token were somewhat opposed to it at first, but with me and Voldy, it's always been love at first sight. ;) There's just a long chain of events that could have been entirely different if ONE tiny thing had changed. It's amazing to think about, isn't it?
And finally, a well-learned lesson on productivity. When you're sitting on your computer, nothing gets done. As you can tell by this blog post. I have started writing my GenEd essay, but only because I turned off the computer and actually went oldschool (insert unnecessary "yo"). I took out a SHEET OF PAPER (omg) and a PENCIL (audible gasp) and wrote for a good 3 hours. I didn't know I could still do that. It was like the WASL all over again... or maybe just an SAT/ACT/AP test. I actually got a lot done. So, on a slightly related note, okay, highly related note, I'm going to turn Emmabelle off and go back to highschool for a few hours. :)
Until next time;
<3 Weebs